SAD SECTION.

Ever really cried your heart out?
yes. lots.

Ever cried yourself to sleep?
yes. lots.

Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
nope.

Ever cried over the opposite sex?
nope.

Ever cried on someone from the opposite sex?
yes.

Do you cry when you get an injury?
yes. when i was young.

Do certain songs make you cry?
YES! like 7th night and persis!



sheeeet lah. i thought i was a happy person, but it seems that im not.

like now. im like seriously stressed now. i cant seem to finish my tuition homework, which is due tmr? i still got like 5 sets of maths and 5 sets of science.

then i still got chinese portfolio, chem sia and mega sia due on tues. mega sia is like dead cause we havent even started on our main article, chem sia im probably doing it all by myself since sue sin and sarah cant be bothered, chinese portfolio im short of 4 essays.

great. im seriously dying.

i dunno whether to dread or look forward to tmr. i mean, the people there are fun-loving, but they are sick. like totally sick. urgh.

and the teacher! NVM.

i dunno what's the point in life. while others have a will to live, i have the will to DIE. i feel like life is a looooooooooooooong dark tunnel which will never and i just cant seem to see the light. and im just walking this road alone. i dont seem to see people around me anymore. they just fade away. i dont even feel family warmth anymore. it's like everytime i reach home, sit down, eat dinner, do homework, discuss project, research, bathe, chat, sleep. i dont even talk to my mum or my sis anymore lah. im like invisible to them.

and sometimes i really wish i didnt exist. cause life is just so ironical.

persis, 7th night and fate always make me emotional.

but it was really persis and phantom which made me emotional today.

i dunno why, but in the middle of persis i suddenly had the urge to cry. i just love the part after the melanie's solo. it's like, the way the band sound when we all come together, it's very touching and the sense of unity is there. and melanie really improved! she can play really well now. with expressions and all that. (: way to go melanie! i think our expressions and dynamics is not there yet for persis. i dunno. i just feel that it's not loud enough when it's supposed to be loud. and our change of dynamics is not fast enough. and basses not loud enough. like me! i really feel like bowing lah. i dont see the point of plucking when it's supposed to be like what, f? if it's like mp, still can lah, cause soft mah. but f is loud lorh. bow already not loud enough then you still pluck, i mean like what's the use lah.

then phantom! i really think the last movement is really grand. "music of the night". i think if we play phantom for the last piece, i would really cry during the last movement lah. it's sounds really grand, like, wow, this is the true band. haiya! dunno how to say lah. just feel very emotional. (:

i guess wizard is ok for the bass lah. but "somewhere over the rainbow" part is so screwed. it's like the whole band piak in the middle then dunno what we playing so messy. errrr! surely we can do better than that.

ahh! i love 7th night! im listening to 7th night and persis now! ((:

today npcc had march past! i think they super united and disciplined and zai3! i think npcc people very cool lorh! lalala! (: jasmine said that sec3 batch np admires band and band admires np. haha. so zai3.

jomain looks shuai4 in npcc uniform!

im prepared to fail my hist test. ):

AHHH. WHERE WHERE WHERE IS THE HOE DOWN, FIRST LOVE AND FATE! we're not playing these pieces for concert anymore! sad. ): i was looking forward to playing first love lah! FIRST LOVE IS SUPER ROMANTIC LORH. especially the saxophone. sexy worh!

and i love hoe down. it is exciting.

and fate is just another emotional song to me.

which means alot to me and the other band members as well.

nutcase very dumb lah! she always walk past, then got that cynical smile on her face, then make me smile! then she say: "ehh! smile at me for what! " -.-

horns dance!

yay i went swimming today! it's like four months since i last touched the waters? lalala. and my stamina is decreasing! give me a break man. i need excersize. now im full of fatty acids, glycerol and lipids. erms :/

just now got alot of things to comment about but on second thought, i shant comment lah. just dunno what to say about it anymore.

bye people!

1. ok. quick post.

2. tmr got maths sia presentation, got science test and chinese test. then friday got history. eugene i dun care. you have to help me in my history!

3. i was really pissed off by something yesterday. nanyang family concert was supposed to put up an tem called "ai4 xin1 shu4." then at first got alot of people sign up. then they realised that they had no time to slack so they decided to cancell. so in the end only got like 5 people from our class attend the 1st session. then afterwards? the other 4 people from our class decided that they would like to quit so they quitted. what the! i mean like if you really cannot then ok lah. but if you quit because you think you need to slack then i really think you got problem lorh. do you know what resposiblity is or not lorh. and that item already got not enought people. now not only got nobody join, still got people quit. i think the item like that cannot put up liao lorh. some people are just so irresposible lah! and they never think what consequences their actions might lead to lorh. and im still pissed for that.

4. cheeyang came to our school yesterday! super funny lah! the band was playing nat anthem and school song. then afterwards me and jasmine put down our bass and went forward to the percussion there. then we were listening to the annoucements. then the councillor said: "now 2 HCL people will address us." then the whole school started clapping. then i clapped also, which was weird! cause the band doesnt clap during assembly.

BUT ANYWAY.

jasmine was like "no dont clap. it's not cheeyang."

guess what?

the guy went on stage and the first thing he said was: "hi. im zhiyang."

then jasmine was like : "oh my gosh oh my gosh!"

erms!

then after the assembly the band went back into the band room. then everyone was like super crazy lah. erms! then sylvia was like : "band, i think today's national anthem and school song was DECENT. not prefect lah but still DECENT." then jasmine said: "you know why? cause got CHEEYANG here. then everyone got the motivation to play properly you know." LAME!

i thought jasmine like ADRIANO?!?!

then afterwards we went our of the band room and then the sec 3s were singing a SUPER LOUD happy birthday song for germaine. partly because the school was quite quiet lah. but it was super energertic and enthu. then guess who we saw?

CHEEYANG.

then pea, jas and hui juan were screaming lah! -.- and i realised something.

CHEEYANG VERY SHORT!

he's like a lot shorter than me lah! when im like very short liao. :/

5. HORNS PEOPLE VERY FUNNY! they very fun loving lah. especially JIAYING, YUFEI AND ROUHUI. haiya! cinders, nutcase and rapunzel lah! super funny! last thusday we were having sectionals. then no bass lessons! then when they we packing up before annoucenments, i saw the HORNS people pulling up their stands very high. then they were adjusting the other stand until short short. then they were like: "SEE! HORNS SO TALL! haha! the others so short." -.-! so i decided to lower their stands then jiaying and nutcase started poking and pulling me away! T.T they bully me! but it's okay. MY DOUBLE BASS IS THE TALLEST. muahahaha.

oh oh! then got the horns and bass dance! super aa! lalala. but it's fun! but spas! haha!

done!

HORNS DANCE!

why?

why is it that the more i try, the weaker i become?

why is it that im so careless?

why am i always so poor for maths?

why maths?

why am i always below average?

why is it that this time, i did so much practices and improved by only 5 pathetic marks?

why?

oh ya! i forgot.

DUNMAN HIGH BAND VERY NICE!!!!

i like that saxophonist! the way he play super sexy!!! pro people you know. (:

plus that tuba player

plus that trumpet player

plus that flute player!

all guys from dunman high alumni band!

so pro!

the way they play and they move is super feeling lorh. very expressive too.

NYCB MUST JIAYOU!

OM Nationals is OVER!

and from our school 1 sec 2 and 1 sec 3 team is going for world finals. the other teams did quite good also. they got either 2nd or 3rd or 4th! lalala.

EXCEPT.

my OM team.

haiz. was quite disappointed at first. me and joanne were sitting next to each other and praying when they were going to announce the champion. then they said : "RAFFLES GIRLS SECONDARY" and joanne screamed and jumped. then she nudged at me to go. then i was like huh? RGS leh. not NANYANG. then she was like: "really arh. i thought they said nanyang?!?!?"

sigh?

ding was there too. haiya. so ke3 xi1.

3 MONTHS OF HARD WORK ENDED ABRUPTLY ON THAT DAY.

i felt quite disappointed lah. but hey. there's always NEXT YEAR you know. (:

today had MATHS TEST. and i didnt managed to complete the paper. die. ):

today had band tooo!

i shall do some advertising you know. (:

nanyang concert presents:

appassionata X

25th june

VCH

playing OH- SO - HEAVENLY pieces like:
-7th night of july
-persis
-fate of gods
-ride
-hoe down
-wizard of oz
-phantom of the ophera
-glenn miller medley
-first love

it's worth it so see you there!

the passion lives on.... nycb!

ok. it's 68 DAYS TO APPASSIONATA X.

ms LIM SIEW YING! BUCK UP CAN?

sheet i suck.

where was the passion that we once had?
where is the vision that we had looked for?
where is the gold with honours we're striving at?
where is the groovyness we once possessed?
why is our standard detoriating?
where has all our feelings and emotions gone?
where is that pro-ness that we once strive hard to have?
how can we ever go on?

please please please please please let appassionata X to be sucessful. cause i really want it to be.

qoutes pea:

teach me to turn silence into noises.
teach me to make noises out of peace.
teach me to change passion into music.
NYCONCERTBANDpercussion;
where universal music is concern.

waha! so cool right! i like the last line. super zai3! (:

another one!

i feel the silence;
i see the music;
i hear the passion.

so poetic! from pea! (:

how inspirational. lalala.


ahh! stupid!

CHOIR PERFORMING ON 7TH JULY AT SIEW MAY AUDITORIUM!!!!

DIE CHOIR DIE! I WANT MY 7TH NIGHT OF JULY BACK!





dont bully me!!!! ):

my ear is bleeding.

and my stomach muscles are aching.

):

see my schedule:

tmr :

8.30 a.m.- piano lesson
12.30 p.m. -go to school for OM
2.30 p.m.- dunman high concert. (and i dont know if i can go or not!!!!)
6.30 p.m- party at cousin's chalet

sat:

6.30a.m. - reach school
6.45 a.m.- leave school for ACSI
10.40p.m.- slot for OM presentation.
5.00p.m.- end

sun:

1-7 p.m.-tuition.

i've got no free time for myself lorh. and i still got 2 stacks of maths and 1 stack of science to complete for tuition. THANKS LORH. I CANNOT SLEEP LIAO LORH.

i feel very depressed and i just wanna cry my heart out.

why?

there's no why.

cause there's no need for a WHY.

guess what happened during national anthem on monday.

Sylvia told us to go outside and tune up before nat anthem. so we went ouside to tune. then we tuned le. so jasmine decided to go and talk to pea. and i was rosing my bow. AND I REALISED THE ROSIN MELTED. freeakk. so i decided to stand behind jasmine and wait for her. i was actually dangling the rosin from my hand lah.

Quotes JASMINE TAN from her blog:

Stupid siewying! she was standing behind me trying to show me the melted rosin while I was talking to pea chong and all of a sudden pea chong looked behind me and screamed. Then she went chey, but when I turned back I screamed like mad can! cause I thought it was a dead rat. Then the whle band was staring at me :/ I mean most of the people who were there. so paiseh. STUPID WOMAN. Don't stand behind me next time and show me this kind of stuff. and early in the morning somemore, at 7.20.. was awake after that.

waliao. like that also my fault arh. is she kan4 cuo4 lorh! and she has been using the rosin LONGER THAN ME KAY. tsk.

the funnier part is.

i laughed till i had stomach cramps during lessons. wth.

oh ya.

i failed as a person and i wanna die. and i want a glass coffin with PINK roses!

quotes eugene: i failed as a person and i wanna die. and i want a glass coffin with RED roses!

copy cat lah you!

haha. cheer up kay?

bye people! (:

1. i typed a rather long and emothional post and BLOGGER DELETED IT. and im still pissed for that cause it totally angered me. ):

2. i still havent post about band outing. what a loser. i havent got enough time and i've got to make time. how ironic. gaah this is stupid.

3. band started with sec 3 interviews for comm le. and during this whole process i saw some ugly sides of my seniors and im rather shocked. though it's rather lie low and not like a big major thing but every little action and every little thing that you say shows something and im dissappointed in some of them. sheesh.

4. some sec 1s are very irritating and i dont know if i can take it anymore.

5. this has been a rather sad week for some INCLUDING ME and i dont know why. while SOME OTHERS are rejoicing im here alone in pain. i dont know what to do anymore. some of us just freak out for stuff that may seem a small matter to others but big to us. so contradicting. like how the two jasmines cried in class and how kexin was so sad at home but oh so happy in school. i guess we're just two different people in school and at home. like how i seem so happy in school but im so moody and stony at home. gaaah i dont know anymore.

6. i've been blocking someone and that someone doesnt even know it. so insensitive lor. and when i unblock him he was like HELLO IM SO HAPPY that type of thing. GRRRR!

7. JASMINE POON! i still think she speaks and walks like clara lu. and clara lu is scary. and jasmine thinks i talk like jasmine tan! :/ creepy people.

8. THANKYOU JASMINE POON FOR YOUR POWERPOINT. (: IT CHEERED ME UP ALOT (: but that was before someone came to ruin my mood. ):

9. before i forget, HAPPY APRIL FOOL AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOMAIN! (:

10. thursday was funny! i sent the whole of llunch time with stupid lynn cheng! and lynn! she so ticklish can! ticklish as in laugh so easily. then the whole of recess it's like me and her laugh laugh laugh. then we wanted to go to the com lab. so she say go by the science block staircase then was like : "huh..... i dont want..... very tired! " then she said: "come on! i want to go science block leh. i scared of people you scared of staircase. pffffffffft."

then when we finally climbed up to the 4th level with much difficulty actually, cause we were laughing for nothing so much so that my stomach ached, and when we reached the top, i was like : "YAY I CONQUER THE STAIRCASE!" then lynn laugh again. -.- then i see her laugh then i laugh, then we all start to laugh. sheesh so stupid lah. two laughing girls laughing hysterically. !! so amusing hur hur. then she started calling me staricase woman! then i call her PEOPLE WOMAN! waliao. so lame. then we decided to walk from the science block to the classroom block to see one seven. and we sort of rested there. then we walk to the science block again. -.- and we went in we saw yiwei and shihui came in and we sat at the side desks and started telling lots of jokes. then lynn say i walk very funny. then she started laughing again. -.- wuliao.

11. monday was funny also! during lunch before we went up to class liuyi went to buy fruit. then i forgot what liuyi said then we all started laughing. super funny lah! then when we were gasping for air, lynn said something about liuyi and liuyi smacked her butt. then we all laugh again. then we started smacking each other's butts. eening and wenqi keet smacking mine! then sok khoong escaped and ran up to class. then liuyi and lynn super funny lorh. i forgot what they did lah BUT I KEPT LAUGHING TILL I HAD CRAMPS. oh sheesh.

12. im trying to reach fifteen.

13. oh. tuesday's band was nice! we played 7th night and fate and the whole band played persis without a conductor! this is called great minds think alike, or rather, mo4 qi4 you know (: xin1 ling2 xiang1 tong1. aiyah i dunno lah. my chinese is badd. then i think jasmine tan super amusing! i say something, then she'll laugh. then when she says something super sacarstic i'll laugh. then when she laugh i'll also start to laugh. then we'll both be laughing idiots. waliao. but she super amusing! haha! and i realised that she doesnt know roman numbers! !!!!! haha! on her blog she put the next concert is appassionata V. WALIAO. WE STILL IN THE PAST LORH. i was loking at that post and laughing. sheesh so stupid. ooh. then tuesday band when we played 7th night, we played this part super fast, then it built up to a climax. but after that ms chong slowed us down. then i was like : "can you imagine if during concert we play like super fast to build a climax then afterwards we slow down again? then the audience will go like : 'waliao. ANTI-CLIMAX.' " then she was laughing her head off. she laughs for a littlest stuff i said lah! so amusing.

14. sorry about me flaring up after band on thursday. guess i had a bad day. and i was super spooked. im so sorry seniors. it's not your fault lah. so dont get so worried. (: im okay now. (:

15. i would walk a million miles just to see you, in search of the your heart. Mesmerized by you. (:

16. ok make that SIXTEEN. (:

bye people. (:

S.H.E.
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